Time hole

Before I was going back home I was a bit afraid that I will jump in a shinkansen and won’t be able to stop and breathe for a while. Then I thought again and said to myself that I am doing my schedule and I can sort it out. Well, I guess I was a bit wrong.

It seems that my free time has been reduced to zero. I try to sort out everything by myself, but realize that my mom is a big help. I think it’s not fair, because she needs her time off as well, so I slowly try to change it. I don’t like to admit it, but being lazy at home is one of my worst habits.

Working 12 hours a day reduces your free time to zero, on the other hand you have more whole free days. Anyway this just created an illusion of huge space which I can sacrifice for my art. That is not what has been happening lately though. There are several reasons.

First of all, I had to unpack and I am disappointed to say that I have not been able to finish this process. I simply have no space where I can put my things, so first I have to clean everything and throw plenty of old and useless things away. I managed to clean my wardrobe, but my room is just too full to enter thus I wasn’t able to do anything yet (and I don’t have my private space).

Second factor which steals my art time in a very friendly and lovely manner are family and friends. Whenever I have a free moment I am thinking about people I could meet. There are too many – I love you guys too much, haha. Balance has not been achieved yet.

Nevertheless, my days here have been a blast so far. I’m enjoying every moment and had time to learn many things. It is time to manage everything, I feel that after two weeks everything is starting to become an excuse. I kind of miss my peace in Wivenhoe, but I’m becoming more active here. I can’t stop!