Not organized

I’ve tried many times to organize my life, but I’ve failed miserably.

I admire people who can organize their life and can get the most of it, however, that is not my case. There are various ways how I’ve tried to change my attitudes. In order to get inspired, I have read many articles with different possibilities, but I usually stop doing it after a couple of days (if I ever start).

I think that the explanation, why I am not such an organized person is, because I feel like a robot after very short time. It doesn’t feel natural at all. I don’t want to say that I don’t make any schedules or plans, I do, of course, but I don’t stick to them vigorously.

To some extent I am afraid of schedules, because I might end up passing one day as another before I even notice it. Like this I have plenty of time to improvise and do whatever I feel like doing. Above all, it upsets me when things are not done in a certain way sometimes. I feel I was gradually becoming less and less adaptable, so I had to add up a bit more chaos to my life. Small things like using random cups for tea and coffee.

The only things I can actually schedule are my hobbies like aikido, meet-ups with friends and work. Apart from that, my free time remains highly unorganized. Few weeks ago, I’ve found one way how to improve my productivity!

I used to write things I need to do on any paper that was in front of me. Obviously this means that I have papers with notes everywhere and those to-be-done activities are often left untouched and they never become accomplished... My new method is a special notebook where I write what I want to do the next day. I write smiley faces next to the finished tasks. Sometimes I rewrite them to the next day and when I postpone too much, sometimes I don’t write anything and try to finish all points from previous days. And to boost my energy, I write a quote or idea for myself every day.

I’m not sure if it’s in any way useful to you or if you have other experience...?